Four Years Married, and it still bothers me!
Friday, Sept. 22, 2006 11:45 am
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Friday, Sept. 22, 2006 11:45 am
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Today is my anniversary.
James and I were married four years ago today...
Twice.
At noon in a simple ceremony on my mother’s little porch with a Justice of the Peace… And then again at midnight, under a full moon, in a circle, with a bonfire and our friends we jumped the broom and were handfasted.
Sounds lovely right? Well, it wasn’t.
The circle was dead.
There was nothing.
No magick.
No spark.
It was awful. I’ve regretted it ever since. It was not what I had envisioned at all.
We had planned out the whole thing with friends of ours, who were supposed to officiate for us. But we had a bit of a falling out, and last minute (it was literally the night before the big day) another friend of ours offered to do it.
We didn’t know her that well at that point… We had known her about six months or so, and she seemed to know what she was doing. She told us she had been a practicing witch for many years and had been a High Priestess. So we thought it would be alright. I didn’t want to postpone it. I wanted it to be Mabon; I wanted the full moon…
So we pushed ahead.
It was a disaster.
I still cringe to think of it.
The woman casting the circle basically just went trough the motions. There was no feeling of power building or anything else.
It was like a badly rehearsed high school play. Everyone was reading their lines off of paper, because there wasn’t time to memorize, and it was so dark that we all had to squint and strain to make out the wording…
It was embarrassing… This was my chance to show my family and friends how beautiful our religion can be, and it was a joke.
I think about it all the time. It bothers me so much. It eats at me…
So James and I have decided to renew our vows. We are going to jump the broom again. Next year will be five years for us. A nice number for a renewal… So we are going to take this year and plan plan plan… We are going to really think about what we want and do it right. Not necessarily expensive, but it will be special. It will be something to remember and smile about.
And I am going to wear white, damn it.
I have regretted the fact that I didn’t the first time.
It’s going to be a carefully thought out, special occasion, and not a hastily thrown together mess!
It will be beautiful, and I’m going to invite my family and friends to share the day with us again, I want to show them that our beliefs are not a joke, that it can be just as beautiful and wonderful as any other... I think the ones who keep an open mind will get it...
Things you can only learn from movies and television...
If I see one more little winky...
right now
Feeling: 
Currently Reading: 2002 Herbal Almanac, its got great stuff!
Listening To: James giving Hannah her first Algebra lesson
To Do List: Dishes, two goddess dolls, laundry, figure out what's for dinner...
Currently Reading: 2002 Herbal Almanac, its got great stuff!
Listening To: James giving Hannah her first Algebra lesson
To Do List: Dishes, two goddess dolls, laundry, figure out what's for dinner...
book of shadows
touch me
thanks